For the people here that still remember me, I want to apologize. For not being the leader you needed and deserved. For letting my emotions overwhelm my better judgement. For deceiving you. All I ever wanted was to take care of you guys and make this a second and safe home.
I cannot begin to tell you how much EJ means to me. Me and Lugia started this site back in 2010. For the years that followed, I was the happiest I've ever been in my life. I felt like I was doing something good for others. And finally being myself- something that I had always kept hidden, or abused for. I was sharing my passion and art and love with people who... Loved and respected me. That was something, in my whole life, have never had before that. EJ filled a void in my heart. You all kept me going when I felt like I had nothing else to live for.
At times throughout my time here, I've done things that I'm not proud of. I've been deceptive and wrathful. And I regret being so. This was supposed to be someplace safe, and I became the one that everyone hated and feared. I won't excuse my actions, they were wrong. But I guess I just want to say that more than anything, I didn't want to lose you. And when I saw people going inactive or leaving, I... Got scared. And I didn't try to fix it logically, like I should have. I got angry because I was so hurt. I felt abandoned. And of course, that's not something I should've gotten so hurt over. People move on, people lose interest. This site is a writing site, and to just get as big as we did still is just incredible. But it's a lot of work to keep writing.
And I know I should have written this a long time ago. But after what happened, I was... Traumatized. For years. I lost a huge part of myself. And it's taken me a long time to come to terms with everything. I've grieved what I had here and who I lost. So...I think I need to say goodbye to EJ. I'm passing my founders account on to the other founder, Lugia.
They have always been there for me and for the site. I feel like I'm leaving our site in good hands. I hope you all many more fun years here. That's all I've ever wanted, and it makes me happy to see it still being used.
I thank you all for the great times I had here. You were my second family. I apologize to those I've hurt.
I wish you all the best,