|Text Color ||686c6c|
|Theme(s) ||I need to decide a new one TBH|
|Item ||Other than some things given by the Driftveil people, he has nothing of his own left.|
|Gender Identity ||Trans boy (he/him)|
|Birthdate ||July 19th|
|Weight ||102 lbs|
|Region of origin ||Unova | Nimbasa City|
|Occupation ||Evacuee, Driftveil resident|
|Party ||Has no Pokemon with him. His companions used to be:|
Serperior [Halcyon] Liepard [Violet] Lucario [Judith] Arcanine [Valkyrie]
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|Quote ||”Is there anyone in this place who isn’t...you know, like ‘that’?”|
•Dark brown hair, brown eyes (if canon contradicts this...idc lol)
•He’s not white, please do not refer to him as such. He’s Asian, and has light brown skin.
•Literally just escaped a long period of what was basically a living nightmare, so he doesn’t look you know. Well
•All his old clothes were replaced after arriving in Driftveil; he now wears an outfit similar to the “School” look from B2W2’s movie place I can’t remember the name of. (I’m too lazy rn to link it but I will add it soon)
|Religion ||The last time he prayed to a Legend, it was to save him from the hell he was stuck in. It didn’t work.|
Left with intense trauma by the events of the epidemic, Nate usually finds himself feeling nothing but a detached numbness, likely an uncontrollable coping mechanism made by his scarred mind. Emotions arise erratically, and usually strongly, before settling back into said detachment. A long period of isolation and starvation in the appalling conditions of the evacuation ship have left him with little energy for feeling anything other than a persistent, agonizing, yet vague misery.
Though once a very outgoing, curious, and somewhat reckless boy, these traits have been buried under relentless pain and fear. It would take a great amount of understanding and patience to see them again-with most people, he is unwilling to show his more vulnerable side. Nate is not unaware of these changes, either; he knows how different of a person he’s become, and fears being hated for it, or seen as a burden.
Because his departure from the ship is so recent, he often feels uncertain of whether their arrival in Driftveil is legitimate. He will wake up fully expecting to be back in his old room, back on that hated ocean, experiencing the deaths and the illusions all over again. His time spent there still haunts him in nightmares; with his mental wounds as fresh as they are, he cannot fully live in the present, and has become determined to remain unattached to anything and anyone in his new home because of his fear that it is just another long dream, or a hallucination.
He very rarely does anything if given the choice, though this isn’t truly his fault. His body is still so weak-both from enduring horrid conditions and accumulated mental trauma-that he often can’t do much more than lay in bed; focusing on anything is hard when your body has no will to move and your brain is filled with fog. Along with this, he’s also become unaccustomed to habits such as regular eating, and thus would not think to care for himself if left alone.
He is scared of most everyone around him, fearing their intentions and what they might do; he tends to avoid people and stays silent as much as possible. To him, speaking is like painting a target on your back; it’s safer to go completely unnoticed. If given the chance, he will isolate himself, the same as he did on the evac ship, in order to stay out of perceived danger. Due to his trauma, most people are enemies to him in one way or another, so he is very slow to trust.
He has immense survivor’s guilt stemming from two things: the first is the death of his Pokemon, specifically the mercy killing of his Serperior. Nate sees himself as a murderer, unable to escape the blood on his hands. The second is his arrival onto the evacuation ship; he only made it aboard because another person stayed behind to help him, and they died for it. Due to these events, even seemingly insignificant things such as eating food can cause him to feel panicky and self-hating, because Nate does not believe he deserves to be alive. He sees his own life as stolen time, and his suffering is simply payback for all the wrong he’s supposedly done.
|Affiliations ||hmm people|
|User Notes ||•Yes, I did take the Serperior away again.|
•Triggers include, and are not limited to: saltwater/the smell of salt, fog, blood, being in water/near bodies of water, and seeing other Pokemon that are the same species as his deceased team. When triggered, he tends not to have visual flashbacks, but rather re-experiences the intense emotions he felt during his trauma.